I was recently talking to my buddy and teammate Tyler about our soon to arrive adventure. We started talking about how important it was to get right with God, but not for the sake of the trip, but because we need God here and now. We discussed the pressure we were feeling to get our lives right with God but for the sake of appearances not necessarily because our hearts were truly chasing after Him.

After our conversation was over, while in the stillness of my room, I realized something; I realized that what we had been talking about was something that I needed to hear. I realized that I was putting the experience and the desire to have my life sorted out above my desire to seek God wholeheartedly. John 5:44 says, "How can you believe if you accept praise from one another, yet make no effort to obtain the praise that comes from the only God." I had become distracted by looking godly instead of actually pursuing godliness. I had been pursuing the appearance of dignity.

Rubbish.

Throwing all facade to the wind I am pursing real, raw, passionate pursuit of Jesus; not because I need Him for my time in Africa, but because I need Him every moment of every day. I am becoming undignified. I will be vulnerable, I will show my brokenness, I will not strive for praise from anyone except He who matters. I will dance before the Lord, I will sing, for I am mad for my King. Nothing now is hindering this passion in my soul.